Destinations...

Whether we realize it or not, we choose where we land.
For the last several months, I have been confused and frustrated about why my life turned out like this...If God is really in control, then why couldn't He protect me from myself? I saw the red flags, the warnings, the signs...whatever you want to call them, but "I" chose to ignore them and 'hope' for the best.
"The prudent see danger and take refuge, but the simple keep going and suffer for it." Proverbs 27:12
I have never considered myself to be 'simple' but according to the Bible, I am indeed 'simple'. I set out on a path without a clear destination - relying on hope. My hope let me down because it wasn't grounded in truth or faith in the right foundation.
All the planning and preparation will not work unless we set out toward our particular destination. Without realizing it, I was, 8 years ago, setting out to be a single mom of three beautiful children.
No, I am not okay with where I am, but if I am to heal from this, then I must acknowledge my current path. I have been in denial for so very long, that the healing had not begun until now.
Since the divorce, I have made some not so great choices that have added to my pain, but I am going to admit that 'I' made them and move on from it. I saw the danger and didn't 'take refuge'...again I thought that as long as I believed that the best would happen, then indeed it would.
I think we can give ourselves a false sense of hope without realizing it because we just want the best.
So, you may be wondering what those 'dangers' were, and you will continue to wonder. I am trying to be honest in my writings but still remain private. I hope you understand this!
I am choosing to move forward and rely on the Lord to guide my heart toward a peaceful future. I will continue to make mistakes, that is part of needing Him to guide me...but...
"CHEERS" to the future...it is indeed brighter today.