Harley Davidson....

No, I am not buying a Harley (not yet, anyway)...but I am going to adopt one of their motto's, "it's not the destination, it's the journey".
So what, I am not where I wanted to be at 29. Honestly, most people aren't where they aspire to be at a certain age. I knew I wanted to have kids, so I got that part down. I just didn't expect to be living with my parents...but I am blessed to have two of the most supportive parents, ever. okay, enough of the mushy stuff...
Shortly after the divorce began last year, I was having a really bad day and so opened my Bible...hoping for some guidance. Proverbs 31...really? Not what I had in mind. I sat there and honestly laughed..."God, you want me to read about the perfect woman, mother and friend?...yes, please make me feel worse...!" I read and came across a verse that I apparently had never seen before..., "strength and dignity are her clothing, and she smiles at the future." WOW! Not that my garments are made of strength and dignity...it seems more of weakness and fear, but I can make a choice to smile. That is MY choice. We can either become what our circumstances make us or we can shape our circumstances into what we want.
Sure, a divorce isn't much like eating a nice slice of key lime pie, however, it is a new beginning. It is a fresh start. It IS still part of my life, part of my journey. All of my circumstances make me into something wonderful if I let them. Everything is a choice...everything.
I have been clothed in fear and confusion for so very long that it will take time for that change, but, as my grandmother always said..."one day at a time".
It has been 11 months since moving in with my parents...it has been hard, it has been wonderful. It has been an enormous part of my journey. I have made new friends, had to let others go...started a new job, paid off bills, put my belongings in storage and made a new life. There is always something else that has the potential to throw me off...my house is scheduled to be auctioned off in a couple of weeks. My home, sold to the highest bidder. Hard to swallow...*sigh*. However, yet, again...another piece to my puzzle. I am not going to let it get me down. I choose to smile at my future...even if I have to force it at times...I will smile.
Honestly, I sit back and am amazed...I have a wonderful life. Three amazing kids, supportive parents, great job, almost debt free...I think I have a life that has the potential to make others jealous...woah! Now, all I need is a God-fearing cowboy, and I am set...! (all in due time)
The journey is the beautiful thing...it makes the destination worth the wait!