Happy New Year....

And so it begins...
The world was to implode only 9 years ago...wow, we made it! 9 years have past and what a time it has been. Well, here we are ushering in the year two thousand and nine! What will it bring, what comes sliding in on it's coat tails? All in due time...
Before we can think about this coming year, it usually consists of sitting back and reviewing the past year. And what a year it has been...I think I have covered the entire spectrum of emotions in only 365 days. Countless snorts and tears...cupped with giggles, wails and even just some moments of silence. I am at a point in my life where I have stopped regretting things, they have made me who I am, who I am becoming...and God is fully prepared to handle it ALL! Since He doesn't have to sit at a desk holding his brow cramming for the "what-ifs" of my life, I can rest knowing that He has got it under control....well, that is IF I let go of it.
He and I had a heart-to-heart today about this upcoming year...and no, it wasn't me begging and pleading for a better year (i.e. winning the lottery, my cowboy finally riding up....) it was begging and pleading for help in letting go. I am a control freak - and for those that know me, really know me, understand that...it is hard for me. I want to know everything, understand everything, be prepared for everything and NEVER EVER be surprised...but, dang-it, God runs things differently. And oddly, it has taken 29 1/2 years to get to a point to 'start' understanding that He really does want me to fully let go of it all...not just some of it, not just the easy stuff. He wants it all..."Therefore, do not be anxious for tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34) HHEELLOO....it is right here, tomorrow is gonna be hard enough, concentrate on today!
So really, I don't go into this year with resolutions, I just want to 'let life go'! I have fouled up things enough doing them my way...let's do it His way! and usually that involves insane amounts of patience....so, it's a good thing I don't have a lot on my plate or I might go insane! Oh wait.....BRING IT ON! "HE WHO IS IN ME IS GREATER THAN HE WHO IS IN THE WORLD."