it is too quiet...

last Friday, i dropped the kids off at school and they have been gone since. Winter break has brought the winter blues...
i was very busy this past weekend working in Jacksonville, but now that i am at home, i am lonely without them. T-ball was great last night...i couldn't take my eyes off of Caleb. he is so amazing! I saw him for an hour. This is so incredibly hard! I carried him to his dad's van and kissed him good-bye again.
Picking up the phone tonight, I hoped to hear their voices but I only heard one. Harleigh talked to me about the crazy storm outside...but Caleb and JP were in the bath. For some reason, i was unable to talk to them. I will remember that the next time the kids are bathing when their dad calls. I know that sounds harsh, but I am tired of bending over backwards to be kind to not get the same respect.
They are coming home on Saturday...3p is Caleb's ball practice...they will be back with me! I can't wait! I am not used to the quiet, the 'having nothing to do' syndrome. really, i do have things to do, but I just don't have the motivation without the pushing of kids behind me. something about screaming, playing, changing diapers, bathing and chasing that moves me forward to do 'things'.
Can't wait to welcome them back home!!!